journey to emotions

My eyes craving for something I deserve then I met you nice , kind and thoughtful that's what I think about you that time .You know destiny has a trait it's seems imaginable but it's hard to believe that imaginations are far away from destiny.I care too much this is what I call my problem, I get close and get hurt. If I tell you love is all about giving your control over your own happiness in the hand of a person who doesn't deserve to be treat in that way, with love, care and respect. Finally I choose not to get too close with you anymore because in the end we both know you have to walk away and it's hard for me to stick around. "Moon can only shine if it's dark , sun can only shine if there is light and when they met in the hour of destiny they loosen their traits under the eclipse" You are sun I am the moon it's better for me to not getting too close! You don't need me shine I don't either need you to get bright .It's hard to be

Me,my story and you in that story that all I wanted! I don't know why we won't get what we give to people around us,it's faith what we give and get the betrayal ,it's the promise we gave and receive the delusion ,it's the love we gave and receive not the same . Proving myself to be your it's not the deal we have , a smile ,a good lovable gesture what I want. You know what I am desiring ? It's not you in the end ! It's just the feeling what's I used to have with you and as this time is going this feeling getting faded . I hoped before this feeling get lost from my heart you came but you didn't . Hell is not the place where you get when you dead but in reality it's a feeling which you get when you lost ,when you lose and when you love wrong person. The feelings that don't go back they stuck and fuck with your luck ! Feelings was like a fairy floss. it's taste sweet and comfortable but doesn't last for long . Feelings that only I h

I started a journey long while ago,with love, trust and you. I always thought before you, lover has a power to fill positivity in life. someone with whom dreams seems to be easy, achievable. I woke up next to you every morning but now it felt distant between us. when we met remember we was two persons looking for support, sex and love— oppsii sex !! But you know that we crazy and crave for each other madly, wow!! a lot more but mean time, I am sure fight makes us stronger individually but weaken our relationship. Getting back from where we started where you and me no longer us. And being honest I love it like that maybe love messed up a person little but sometimes it also give a reality check that you enough to handle anything and in a legitimate  manner it's better, awesome and clear without you.

Somewhere down in my heart I know you are not for me. I am a option  for you and you are a dream for me . I am just a person who wants confusion in her life, A unclear feeling for someone without knowing what he really wants from me a feeling that can destroy me inside and out and knowing the fact I am not good enough for him ,he deserve better . I don't justify why would I want to be in this mess of emotions, a state where I am not in control a situation where I don't want to think about it but I am thinking about it I don't know where it become real where it find a way to my heart where I always alone with my thoughts I don't label this emotion as love but this is not friendship anymore. I have butterflies in my stomach weird feeling in my head and a sensation of strange feeling all over me taking me in control . I Know you deserve better ,I know I am not good enough and I also know it never works out between us. When I were explaining you about my feelings I not